Often on a lazy saturday I spend a good amount of time watching Public Television.
Firstly since, I don’t have cable, and secondly there usually isn’t much else on.
So I watch a lot of the cooking shows that are on public tv. Some of them are the studio shows, but many of them have world locations as their backdrops.
Something struck me today as I watched a show where this chef was wandering around Mexico City.
First let me premise this, with the understanding that these shows are produced for an American audience and really want to highlight the nice things that these countries have to offer, both culturally and also culinary.
What struck me is that as I watched this show I found myself wondering why everything was so nice. Or pretty. Or beautiful.
Mexico city is one of the most (if not the most) populated city in the world. There are unfathomable amounts of poverty and crime and dirtiness and other things that are characteristic of a 2nd or 3rd world nations.
I sat there knowing that there was so much suffering and pain probably happening around each corner of each shot, but we as the audience were shielded from this.
I guess I’m just at that point in my christian life where I don’t want pretty. I don’t want nice. I don’t want everything to be presented on a pretty platter so that it looks like something I want to consume.
I don’t want to live in the commercial for the country that I should visit.
I want to live my live stuck waist deep in the realities of the world. I want to be surrounded with the places where beauty is not defined by clean buildings and appealing imagery. I know this makes things harder, it makes finding beauty something we must work for, and it makes beauty all the more beautiful.
As I begin to really think through how and where I want to live my life and where and how I want to do ministry, these places that are not picture perfect begin to seem more and more appealing. I am growing tired of suburbia and affluence. More and more my heart longs to be amongst the people of God, who truly understand the need to rely on God for everything they have.
It seems like too often our churches take on the understanding of these shows. The emphasis is on making things nice and neat and contained. I hear far fewer stories where church life is disheveled and raw, than stories where there is a lot of work and effort to make things look and run smoothly, where if you come to our church it seems like everyone is happy and content.
Too often we say we want to live authentic lives that are real, raw, open, laid bare, but far too often I do not see that lived out in the life of a church. Problems are hush, hush, pastors feel incapable of being real and open, church members who are hurting for one reason or another are unable to share their hurt, in fear that they will be looked down upon.
I know that this usually isn’t an open motive to not allow people to express their pain, but it occurs more than we would like it to.
When I think about how we can live more in tune with Jesus’ understanding of broken and needy people, I think we need to make intentional space for these concerns and stories to be told. Are we willing to have space in our services where people can share their true brokenness? And are we as a congregation really willing to fully accept these people as contributing members to the community, or are they seen as not fit to contribute because of their “whatever”. If a woman confesses she is unwed pregnant and living with her boyfriend, does that disqualify her from being an active participant and contributor to the life of a church? Or does she have to keep things quiet and secretive as to blend in with the “regular” people who are probably just as hurting as she is?
My hope is that I can be part of a community that is willing to tear down the facade of beauty and perceptions of having everything together. As I truly get to know people I have a deep understanding that our lives are a mess. And that’s a good thing! Though it seems to be that this really only happens in close relationships. Which probably speaks to the fact that church sometimes doesn’t live up to the call to be in relationship with each other. Although this is an entire side topic, I think some of this comes from our form of worship with each other. When we stare at the back of the head in front of us and we don’t dialogue with each other about what we are learning then it is usually hard to form relationships with hair who doesn’t talk and when we can’t talk to the hair.
Relationships are hard. Truly raw and unpretty relationships are harder. But that’s what we see Jesus a part of. He’s involved with unperfect people and they are involved with him. I think we have a lot to learn from the places in the world that we would rather hide from our cameras and the insides of our travel brochures. Jesus really sets a good example on who to love and how to love them and how to make sure our community life doesn’t end up looking like an ad for some miracle drug, where people are just happy and running through fields.
Sorry I won’t be around to discuss this with you all this week, but that doesn’t mean that you guys can’t have some good conversation in the comments.
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