As much as I would like for this not to be a problem. I still have lingering feelings that I deeply desire community. A community that wholly accepts and supports me. A community that I’m plunged into, a community that allows me to wrestle, falter and succeed.
A group of people that highly values me and that highly challenges me in so many of the correct places. People who are constantly there and around.
Mature and vulnerable friendships that can be relied upon.
Maybe it’s all a dream or a fantasy that will never be realized. Maybe it’s just wanting to be a part of some imaginary inner circle.
Maybe it will never happen. Or maybe it just hasn’t happened yet…